Atmosphere has two distinct definitions. One is
characterized as the gases surrounding the earth, while the second definition
is a general mood or feeling. This particular series of Impossible exposures
speaks to both definitions. While capturing these landscapes, I deliberately aimed
for scenes that possessed an atmospheric quality, such as fog, and a sense of
melancholy. When seasons start to transition, many become acutely aware of the
environment and how it affects their frame of mind. Since the realization that
I am susceptible to bouts of depression, I have worked towards understanding
what factors contribute to those feelings. Most will find that they are more vulnerable to their environment than they realize. We are influenced by the vibes exuded from
the people, places and things we surround ourselves with. Some could define
this as a character flaw, but I chose to embrace this quality in myself and
encourage the alternative view it gives me.
Since the beginning of instant film, one had to accept the
many inherent imperfections in the system. The film itself is prone to various
defects, whether it is the chemicals not spreading correctly over the frame,
the temperature manipulating the overall color or being accidently exposed to
sunlight during the processing stage. The type of Polaroid camera used in
conjunction with the film contributes different and distinct faults. Working
with a Polaroid OneStep Close-up 600 camera from 1996 comes with numerous
limitations. The camera has a built-in electric light meter that sometimes
results in an over or under exposed image. The lens is plastic and has a
tendency to soften the focus. By utilizing this particular medium and format I
chose to embrace all of its unique characteristics.
As a society, we focus too much on the negative connotations
of a flaw. With this series I hope to change how one perceives these
imperfections and I encourage the viewer to find the beauty in something deemed
undesirable. I chose this form of presentation to highlight the concept that
our surroundings have the power to impact the way we feel and embody the ability
one has to change those aspects. I also encourage the viewer to interact with
the piece, carefully moving the pages as one pleases.
